Honestly, sometimes I do not know what I am doing…
I am not just talking about parenting, marriage, or friendship either. No, I mean me, Ashley, and all the things that make up my life. I am literally an organizational, border line OCD person who simultaneously can be scatter brained. Not sure how that even makes sense, but here I am. But I am positive I am not the only one out there. You do not have to be exactly like me to feel lost. All you need is to wander around not really knowing your purpose in life.
You are looking at that picture and thinking oh great, she's about to get deep. Let me stop right here to say, this is not going to be some super in depth philosophical essay. I am just being real with you all. Also, I really liked the picture. If you don't ever question your purpose then kudos to you, that is awesome and you are better than I.
I am just being honest about myself and I want you to be honest too. How many of us walk around, pretending we know where we are going and what we are doing, but in truth it is just a facade? I don't think that we intentionally go about to deceive, we just get hung up in our daily lives that we forget there is a bigger picture. The problem for me is I get so caught up in worrying about everyone else's directions in life I lose myself in the process. We all wear many hats and there is a purpose to each one. Parents have purpose in taking care of their children and giving them the best possible chance they can have in life. Spouses are to love and care for one another in the good and bad. Friends have purpose in being supporting, loving, and trustworthy. I know all that by heart and I am sure you do too. Whether or not I am good at them is another story (or two) entirely. The point is we know what the purpose of those aspects of life are, but what about I/Me?
Everything and everyone has a purpose in life. Mine is not just to be a mother, wife, friend, sister, etc. I think my purpose is to be the best me and wear all of those hats well. Like I said before, I don't know for sure what it is and this is just a thought, but I think this is a great place to start. Make sense? Let me say it like this. If I put the same effort into myself that I put into everyone else, if I give myself equal time and energy I think I can have the best possible outcome for my life. If I can apply this to my life, I won't get lost in the “Why am I here” thoughts.
A funny thing about life is, if we are doing it right, when we arrive at the end we can look back and see the blessing of the journey. So, do the best you can in the time you have, rock your many hats with pride, and please don't forget to care about yourself. When your atttiude changes about yourself, you will notice you start to walk with more confidence and less like you are lost without GPS.
To everything there is a season, and a time for every matter or purpose under heaven. -Ecclesiastes 3: 1
Live purposefully and worthily and accurately… -Ephesians 5:15
The purpose of life is a life of purpose. -Robert Byrne